was 8sept 2007 a mistake ?

dah lama dah rupanya .
dah setahun setengah .
dah lama dah dia pergi .
dah lama ..
terlalu lama .

youu ,
i rinduu .
sangat sangat rindu .
tak pernah berhenti rindu youu .
you tak rindu i ?
i tauu , you tak rindu i .
sape lah i ..

youu ,
i sayang .
sangat sangat sayang .
tak pernah berhenti sayang youu .
you tak sayang i ?
i tauu , you tak sayang i .
sape lah i ..

youu ,
hari tu , i mimpi you .
dah 11 bulan i tak jumpa you .
maybe i terlampau ingatkan you .
sebab tu lahh .
you maybe rasa i kuat niii .
tapi , taklahh !
i lemah laa you .
you nak tau ? you lah kekuatan i .
your soothing face , calms me down .
tapi you dah tinggalkan i .
you dah pergi kan ..

somehow i feel so tense . i just can't lie to myself anymore . it has been 1 and a half years , but still , i can't manage my own feelings . i still miss him , i long for him . i need him . i know i do . i forbid people from talking abt him just to make sure i am okay . but still , i am not okay . is love a crime ? is my feeling killing me ? i just wish to bump into him anywhere to at least see him with my 2 bare eyes . youu , i miss you . if only missing someone causes death , i'd be long gone already . it has been 3 years and 2 months and it has never been about anyone else . it's all about you ! i love youu . please wipe my tears away . please , i beg .. i really beg .